i got the joy

one of the happiest days of my life…

[ ok, you’re probably not going to understand this post, but here goes… ]

…was the day i was asked to leave a church.

I got a rush of joy from the holy spirit.  I was dancing all the way home, swinging round power poles, singing out loud, oblivious to what anyone might think.  i was ‘drunk’ in the spirit.

weird, huh?

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in the book of exodus, god delivered a nation.  but their journey from bondage to promised land includes a series of tests, starting at the red sea.  it was a set-up!  god arranged it!

first the red sea, then no water, then no food, & so on.  god was preparing a nation.

according to the writer of hebrews, god disciplines us FOR OUR OWN GOOD.  he loves us!

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so back to my happy day… i was told i had two weeks to change, or i had to leave.  (i forgot to ask what i was doing wrong… silly me.)

god was testing me.  preparing me.

i got a download of joy from the holy spirit, so i knew god was with me.

i wish i could say i passed the test, but no…

two weeks came & went.  i wasn’t forced to leave.  i was told it was a stalemate.

but eventually i caved in.  i totally ignored the voice of the holy spirit, i went to leadership & said pray for me, i submit.

that sounds like a good thing, right!  submission is good?

no.  not when you refuse to listen to the holy spirit.

over the next year i totally lost the joy.  i went into full time mission, miracles happened, people got saved… but no joy.  eventually i had a nervous breakdown that took years to recover from.

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this story happened almost 30 years ago.

so why am i sharing it now?

because i’m getting the joy back, that’s why!

& i’m getting my health back!

it has happened in increments over many years, but i felt like the joy i had was never fully restored.

until recently that is…

& it feels good.

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About kiwi in perth

god is good. :) really really good. my name is al; god called me to leadership & this is my journey.
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4 Responses to i got the joy

  1. Lyn Packer says:

    That is such good news, may it come back in it’s fullness!

  2. Jason Kehler says:

    bless you for sharing this brother. may God continue to work in you and restore you, and enjoy the ride along the way.

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